That's the thing about pain, it demands to be felt.

I am a paradox. I want to be happy, but I think of things that make me sad. 

I am lazy, yet I am ambitious. I do not like myself, but I also love who I am. 

I say I do not care, but I really do. I crave attention, but reject it when it comes my way. 

I am conflicted contradiction. 

If I can not figure myself out, there is no way anyone else will...

Danes je bil ponovno eden tistih dni, ko te nisem uspela izgnati iz svojih misli. Težko je reči, kaj po vseh teh letih pravzaprav čutim do tebe. Je to jeza? Sovraštvo? Ljubezen? Vem le, da je nekaj, kar ne čutim do nikogar drugega, kot do tebe. Neko močno čustvo, ki me že dober teden ne pusti spati. Mučijo me grozne sanje. Zbujam se neprespana in tako izmučena, da si zjutraj, ko vstanem zaželim, da bi bil ponovno večer. Tako bi  lahko zaspala v svoji postelji, ki mi je bila vsa ta leta uteha, sedaj pa se spreminja v nekakšen brezoseben in nelagoden prostor, kjer se ne počutim več varne in ljubljene. Bojim se tega čustva. Strah me je, da me bo ponovno zvlekel tja, od koder sem s takim naporom komaj da rešila. 

- Do you ever think of me?

We are all sinners.

I believe in the notion that all people deserve second chances. The understanding behind forgiveness. The verity that every truth has more than one side. The capability to listen to and appreciate an apology. The key to unlock the doors of ones future can be found by first opening ones- eyes, ears and heart. But there comes a time when you can only try to comprehend for so long...
I believe in forgiving but never forgetting when merited. I believe in never justifying a lie, but moving past the grief it ignited. I believe in setting down the shield that has been raised in fear, in order to understand that everyone deals with pain, acceptance, and thoughts that provoke sleepless nights. And I believe in everything happening for a reason, that friends are the hardest to forgive, and that we must try not to dwell on what could have been but strive towards what should be.

The road is long but in the end the journey is your destination.

My walls went up, 

as my confidence went down.

Težko je reči, kaj je usoda in kaj je le splet nenavadnih načrtovanih okoliščin. Srečanje med njima je bilo ponovno popolnoma nenačrtovano. Ob pogledu nanj se ji je ogrelo srce. Stopil je do nje in jo pozdravil s nasmehom, ki prekriva tisoč želja, ki bi jih zanjo lahko izpolnil v trenutku. Jamice v ličnicah in žar v njegovih očeh sta jo pustila brez besed, kot že mnogokrat do sedaj. Čeprav si je zaželela pobegniti z njim, ni smela. Ostala je s prijateljicami. In ko je odhajal se ji je po glavi podilo nešteto vprašanj. Četudi se usoda potrudi, da ju poskuša zbližati, je čas tisti, ki nikoli ni na njuni strani. 

If it is meant to be, it will be. 

Do not ever let anyone dull your sparkle.

Življenje je nekaj svetega. Je nekaj velikega in edinstvenega. Je mozaik s sliko jasnega neba posutega z zvezdami. In zvezde so tisti trenutki, ki nas osrečujejo. So trenutki za katere živimo, vse ostalo so le preizkušnje in težave, katere moramo prebroditi, da pridemo do zastavljenih ciljev, ki jih predstavljajo zvezde. Zvezde nas na poti do cilja opogumljajo in nam dajejo potrebno moč.
Res je, da je temni del mnogo obsežnejši od svetlega, toda življenje ni nekaj enostavnega, zato je potrebno mnogo naporov v boju za preživetje.
Močnejši in pogumnejši zmagajo in gredo dalje. Vedno je bilo tako in vedno bo.

>> Sprejmi vsak svet, svoj svet obdrži zase! <<
Vsi ljudje se v življenju pretvarjamo, nosimo maske in igramo nekaj, kar v resnici nismo. To ni dobro, saj nas to včasih lahko pripelje do usodnih okoliščin. Lahko bi rekla, da je najbolje da se ne pretvarjamo. Vendar mislim, da je pretvarjanje dobro le, če je resnično nujno in ne kar iz navade. Saj resnica brez sočutja, ni resnica in velikokrat prizadane ljudi namesto, da bi jih osvobodila.

Never give up on something you have worked so hard for. 

Never give up on what you really want to do. The person with big dreams

is more powerful than one with all the facts. 

Be who you were created to be, and you will set the world on fire.

To the ones who still believe in dreams: 

Chase them. Chase them until you are out of breath. 

Then, keep running. 

No matter where you are, you are always a bit on your own, always an outsider

Vsak človek je svet zase. Vsak človek oblikuje svoj svet in si druge ljudi le prisvaja. Vrže jih v svoj svet, čeprav imajo oni  že lastne svetove. Se pravi, da v lasten svet povabimo ljudi za katere mislimo, da se bodo zlili z našim. Včasih se to zgodi in spet včasih je naša želja prevelika, da bi se lahko posloviti od njih, če ne odgovarjajo našemu svetu. Mislimo, da so se nas posamezne osebe preveč dotaknile. Da morajo spadati v naše življenje, v naš svet. Čeprav nam niso niti malo podobne. Irealna predstava nam tako zamegli razum, da si želimo, da bi po nekem naključju ostali v našem svetu. Da bi ostali z nami za večno. Pa čeprav le del njih v nas, in del nas v njih. Želja, da bi bivali še v nekem drugem svetu, poleg našega je ogromna človeška potreba. Na nek način si vsi želimo, da bi postali smrtni nesmrtniki nekje v iluziji časa.

The xx- Fiction

The trick is to enjoy life. Do not wish away your days, waiting for better ones ahead.

I did not write for a quite long time, but I was busy studying for the matura exam and later I did not find my password to enter in. Stupid excuse right, but I always forget them, because I always change them.
My summer is already one big adventure. Firstly I went to my aunt in Koper. It is a small town in Slovenia near the sea. And yesterday I came home from Zrće, where I was with my 4 friends. Zrće are famous  place for parties in Croatia. And I think there were made one of the best memories in the summer 2013 (:

Those amazing moments in life:

Holding hands 

Unexpected moments that become your favourite memories
Resting on someone´s chest
Taking long baths that wash away your worries

Feeling as though you belong somewhere
Meeting people that happen to change your life

Drinking a cup of hot tea
When you have a great night 

Buying amazing clothes that you found on sale
Deciding what you want to do with your life

Watch good movie

Meet someone who truly understands you

When you do not lose yourself just because you found someone

When you look at things differently than others

You do not regret something you once wanted

 (:

When your crush looks at you like he is about to kiss you

When you are not sorry for some crazy thing you have done

Every day I more and more believe, 

that lot of things are 

happening because of fate.